Christ Cat, you’ve voiced so much of what’s been going through my head lately. I’ve been struggling with an uptick in depressive symptoms yet outside I’m doing well and it’s so hard to reconcile that with yourself. That “I should be happy!” mantra in your head. But like you said it just doesn’t work that way.
dude. thank you so much for sharing this. it’s an infuriating feeling to know we have a lifetime ahead of us of “being like this”. but in some ways, it’s posts like these that help so many of us. i needed this reminder that it’s maybe not as isolating as my brain tells me it is. i’m grateful for your words, and moreso that you’re making it through and here to share them with us. sending you all my love, thank you for being you
"It’s entirely possible that I just have everyone fooled and I’m actually an evil little cretin that is out to get others, hiding behind the facade of an angel that can do no wrong. I don’t think I am, and nobody around me thinks it, but sometimes I wonder if it’s true. If it was, and I was so good at it that nobody noticed including myself, I would never know for certain. "
literally me. it's crazy the mental gymnastics we perform in our minds to make ourselves believe that we are terrible people. i think that if we were truly terrible people, we wouldn't have these thoughts, though.
i've been re-watching bojack horseman now and i've been thinking about some of this stuff too, so seeing this today really made me feel less alone. i know this too shall pass, but i also know that sometimes it feels like it won't. thank you for putting this out here <3
It the spirit of putting the world through a Bojack lens. This one always brings me momentary joy in my moments of despair.
"The t-shirt told me to "just do it". I don't know to what "it" the t-shirt was referring. But I will not be spoken to that way by an article of clothing!"
Last time I felt like this was only last winter. Days of waking up and crying because I don’t want my life to be lived like this. I hate this shit, and it feels very validating to see that I am not alone. (Even though I of course do know that most days but sometimes it is easy to kind of forget)
It takes a lot of courage to be able to write all of that and share it. Thank you for doing so.
I love reading such essays, not because I like reading about other people feeling like shit, but because it makes me feel connected to humankind. To know mental illness and crazy scary shit happens to all of us makes it feel less crazy and scary.
Anyway, I wish you well! I hope the weight of it all is lighter now, even if it’s just by a little bit. You take care of yourself. <3
"Of course I’m behind, I never stood a chance" that right there made me want to cry. I get it, I do. Thank you dearest cat, for sharing this with us ❤️
Thank you for writing this Cat and being so vulnerable with us 🥹 I completely get when you said that mental health is not this airy fairy thing people romanticise because it’s the COMPLETE opposite and I hate people thinking it’s not!! I do hope things get better for you and I’m always here if you need a rant, sending all my love 🫂
Thank you for being so vulnerable and opening up like this! This felt like reading my thoughts typed out even BOJACK HORSEMAN PART OMG this is beautiful ur beautiful. You are so strong (and funny) and you are doing so so well thank u for writing this
The way I related to all of this wtf, girl you’re witty you’re relatable please keep writing when you can obv cuz honestly ik how depressive symptoms can be, girl you earned yourself a sub, you’re gonna get so many notifications of restacks 😂
thank you so much for sharing this cat, your vulnerability is so powerful. it helps me to remember that healing is never linear, but when you zoom out, we're trending upwards overtime. sending love <33
i feel very seen by this post. it’s tough, sometimes especially, and it doesn’t just go away. i’m glad you’re doing okay and i’m sending you so much love <3
Christ Cat, you’ve voiced so much of what’s been going through my head lately. I’ve been struggling with an uptick in depressive symptoms yet outside I’m doing well and it’s so hard to reconcile that with yourself. That “I should be happy!” mantra in your head. But like you said it just doesn’t work that way.
Always always here for you love !! We don't have to do this alone <33
dude. thank you so much for sharing this. it’s an infuriating feeling to know we have a lifetime ahead of us of “being like this”. but in some ways, it’s posts like these that help so many of us. i needed this reminder that it’s maybe not as isolating as my brain tells me it is. i’m grateful for your words, and moreso that you’re making it through and here to share them with us. sending you all my love, thank you for being you
I'm so grateful for you my sweet girl thankyou so much <33
"It’s entirely possible that I just have everyone fooled and I’m actually an evil little cretin that is out to get others, hiding behind the facade of an angel that can do no wrong. I don’t think I am, and nobody around me thinks it, but sometimes I wonder if it’s true. If it was, and I was so good at it that nobody noticed including myself, I would never know for certain. "
literally me. it's crazy the mental gymnastics we perform in our minds to make ourselves believe that we are terrible people. i think that if we were truly terrible people, we wouldn't have these thoughts, though.
Exactly this! I often have to remind myself of that quote "if you worry that you're a narcissist, you probably aren't" because otherwise....
i've been re-watching bojack horseman now and i've been thinking about some of this stuff too, so seeing this today really made me feel less alone. i know this too shall pass, but i also know that sometimes it feels like it won't. thank you for putting this out here <3
which character do you relate to most ???? i’m probably most like diane but with a dash of pickles funnily enough
i relate so heavily with diane!!
It the spirit of putting the world through a Bojack lens. This one always brings me momentary joy in my moments of despair.
"The t-shirt told me to "just do it". I don't know to what "it" the t-shirt was referring. But I will not be spoken to that way by an article of clothing!"
LOVE IT !!!
Last time I felt like this was only last winter. Days of waking up and crying because I don’t want my life to be lived like this. I hate this shit, and it feels very validating to see that I am not alone. (Even though I of course do know that most days but sometimes it is easy to kind of forget)
It takes a lot of courage to be able to write all of that and share it. Thank you for doing so.
I love reading such essays, not because I like reading about other people feeling like shit, but because it makes me feel connected to humankind. To know mental illness and crazy scary shit happens to all of us makes it feel less crazy and scary.
Anyway, I wish you well! I hope the weight of it all is lighter now, even if it’s just by a little bit. You take care of yourself. <3
We can always take care of each other love !! <33 thankyou for reading and for leaving something so thoughtful
Hit right in the feels. It's so frustrating wanting more for myself but being like this..
Thank you for sharing, it made me feel less alone. I admire you <3
And I admire YOU you have no idea 😭😭 we can do this <33
yes we can <33
"Of course I’m behind, I never stood a chance" that right there made me want to cry. I get it, I do. Thank you dearest cat, for sharing this with us ❤️
We've got this love !! We can get through it <33
Thank you for writing this Cat and being so vulnerable with us 🥹 I completely get when you said that mental health is not this airy fairy thing people romanticise because it’s the COMPLETE opposite and I hate people thinking it’s not!! I do hope things get better for you and I’m always here if you need a rant, sending all my love 🫂
Always here for you too my sweet girl (and believe me once you've seen how those men turn in last night's ep you'll need me)
Thank you for being so vulnerable and opening up like this! This felt like reading my thoughts typed out even BOJACK HORSEMAN PART OMG this is beautiful ur beautiful. You are so strong (and funny) and you are doing so so well thank u for writing this
mama YOU are beautiful (also I love finding a fellow BoJack girly in the wild !!!) thankyou for reading <33
The way I related to all of this wtf, girl you’re witty you’re relatable please keep writing when you can obv cuz honestly ik how depressive symptoms can be, girl you earned yourself a sub, you’re gonna get so many notifications of restacks 😂
So glad the algorithm brought us together because the girls that get it simply get it 🙂↕️🙂↕️
ur not allowed to be this funny
Sorry ml I will do better 😔😔
thank you so much for sharing this cat, your vulnerability is so powerful. it helps me to remember that healing is never linear, but when you zoom out, we're trending upwards overtime. sending love <33
Trending upwards overtime !! Thankyou I needed that this morning ilysm
You’ve got this bud! Thank you for sharing 🫶
WE have got this brother 🤝
The fact that one of my least favourite people studied to be a nurse and is now on her way to be a nurse chief... 😂
Thank you for sharing all of this Cat, it's always a pleasure to read you and to feel seen. And i'm quite glad you're doing fine 💜
it’s always their chosen career path i’m so serious !!!
sending love to you, thankyou for reading !! <33
i feel very seen by this post. it’s tough, sometimes especially, and it doesn’t just go away. i’m glad you’re doing okay and i’m sending you so much love <3
sending endless love to you too !! we’ve got this <33